2015年1月24日星期六

情人節驚喜

不知不覺,2015年的第一個月就要完了,迎來的是春暖花開的一個月,也是華人最重視的一個節日- 農歷新年....而今年的情人節落在新年前夕,想必很多的情侶都會想破頭腦,要送什麽給另一半....

而我,早在一個星期前,就開始準備禮物了,手工制作的星星,雖然收禮物的哪個不是我的另一半,但是我希望他可以知道我的心意....認識他有兩年多,三年了,而喜歡他已經有一年半的時間,曾經想過要放棄去喜歡他,但是最後還是不成功....

這份禮物,我用了半天的時間,從一間的shopping centre, 找到去另一間,從東找到北,回家的時候還搭錯巴士回家,折騰了幾個小時才買到的材料.... 而這是我第一次折星星,也浪費了好多的紙,也折到我的手好痛,但這一切都沒關系.....

2015年1月7日星期三

從回部落格生活

是有多久沒寫部落格了,每當想要更新的時候,就會有股不想去寫,不知道要怎樣開始去寫,所以到最後還是放棄,不寫了...很快的,2014年就這麽的過去了,感覺在一年裏,什麽都沒做到,感恩的是,順利的從學院畢業了,也完成了自己對父母的承諾,戴上了四方帽....

事業上,也沒什麽成就,畢竟不是在自己想要的職位上,只能說得過且過而已...心裏盤算著要在新年後找份自己真正喜歡,有挑戰性的工作,因為這樣,自己才能慢慢的進步,而且稱年輕的時候,去闖一闖,這樣對以後的自己不會覺得愧疚....


感情上,一直沒找到那個懂我的人,理解我的他...今年是2015年,6 年前,我遇到個真心喜歡,真心想珍惜的他,只是那時候真的年輕不懂事,做錯了一個很大的選擇,在事情被發現後,我們倆就真的沒有機會了,連朋友都當不成,我其實非常的後悔,真的後悔,可是現在多說什麽也彌補不了....之前還可以透過面子書去了解他的近況,也許因為他知道我會去看,所以現在面子書也看不了了,難道你就真的那麼恨我嗎? 知道你之前身體不好,我很擔心你的,只是你完全封鎖了可以看到你消息的管道......我也不知道該怎麽辦....只想問你: 你最近好嗎?身邊已經有那麼一個讓你開心,疼愛你的另一半嗎?最後一句是:我們還可以從新當朋友嗎?


一個人,離鄉背井的來到新加坡工作,沒朋友,沒親戚,其實很孤單,寂寞....每天的生活就是上班,回家,睡覺,日復一日....寫部落格,只想發泄我的心情,不然在沒有人聽我訴苦的時候,我真的會發瘋的....

2014年5月5日星期一

回来啦!!

距离上个帖子,有半年了吧,再距离上上个贴子有两年了吧......
是有多久没写部落格了,是因为什么原因不写了,也忘了是什么.....
现在的我,长大啦,思想也比几年前还要的成熟,
也知道并不是什么都可以写出来,发表出来的.......
上个帖子是写给"他"的, 其实还有很多很多话想和他说,
只是我知道他是不会看的,所以也把很多话收在心里了....

是什么原因让我再次的写回部落,其实我自己也不知道.....
心里其实有太多太多的心事了,想找朋友聊一聊,可是每个都有自己的烦恼....
不可能把自己的烦恼加注在别人的身上.....
还没出来社会之前,已经知道现在的社会是多么的现实了....
可没想到,出来社会后,才知道以前所谓的"现实", 只不过是普普通通而已.....

其实发觉到,人越长越大,会越来越不开心,
会笑不出,会很压力,会很情绪化.....
以前的我,是个开朗的女生,是个什么都可以笑笑,就忘记的女生....
可是现在不一样了,现在虽然还是可以笑笑,但是背后的苦,谁会知道?
现在的我,假装的功力越来越厉害,可以对别人说没事,
但是心里是苦的很......
最近有句经典的话就是:
"每个人的心里都有很大一袋的垃圾,不是把想倒,根本不知道倒到哪里去,
其实我们都在等一个,可以帮我们倒垃圾的那个人"

其实心里的苦是,今年23岁的我,却连一个男朋友都没有....
有时候 \有压力,不开心的时候,都没有能让我诉苦.....
也不能打电话回家给家人,这样只会让他们担心而已......
有时候看见身边的朋友一个个的拍拖,好不幸福的样子,其实很羡慕他们....
朋友都说,你人那么好,又会煮饭,应该很多人喜欢你吧?
问题是,我不是美女啊,现在的男生只会说我们女生现实,
可是你们不也一样的现实吗?一个女生没有美丽的外表,没有漂亮的身材,
你们男生都不会瞟一眼的吧? 说什么外在会改变的,现在漂亮不代表以后会漂亮,
可是内心漂亮,永远就会漂亮......
没有美丽的外表,你们不会和我们做朋友,那你们是如何的发觉别人的内在呢? 

2013年10月14日星期一

给你的信

嗨,最近的你,好吗?我们也有4年没联络了吧?
其实,自从四年前的分开,我一直都有在留意你的状况,
刚开始的时候,我有去加你的facebook,可是你一直都没有接受,
我知道当时的你,还是在恨我的吧?
想问问你,这4年,你过的好吗?快乐吗?是不是还记着我所带给你的伤害?

说真的,4年不是很长,也不是很短,要忘记所受过的伤害,是很难,
而我,要忘记你对我的好,是更难...
4年前对自己说过,时间可以让人忘记一切,
可是对于我来说,那只会更想念以前的一切....
曾经说过要忘记你,可是却做不到,做到的只是不再每天的去想你....

你,还记得只属于我们两个人内心的世界吗?你知道吗,其实"它"还存在着,
只要你在google找那个blog的名字,它就会出现,
我偶尔会打开看看,看回以前我们所记载的东西,
里面有我们所有的喜怒哀乐,也包括了,所有的诺言,对吧?
每当我心情不好的时候,我就会去看它,看着看着,嘴角会不直觉的往上仰,
以前的我们,是有着一段幸福,快乐的生活,即使我们没见面,
那时候的我们,都很单纯的,一点点的东西,都会开心个半天...
可是这个幸福却被我一手给摧毁了.....

人家都说,初恋是最难忘记的,这是一点都没错,
因为直到现在,我还记着你的一点一滴,
你的好,你的笑,你的一切一切,都还历历在目...
经常都说,已经把你放下了,已经不会在对你有任何的奢望了,
只是,真的不是这样的,因为我只是把你藏在心里的最深处,
一直以来,我找男朋友的条件,都会有你的影子存在,
我是没发现的,直到我的朋友告诉了我,我才恍然大悟,


你知道我在diploma读的是marketing吗?你知道为什么我会选择它吗?
全是因为你,因为你也是marketing的,我只是想多了解你的生活,
所以就毫无犹豫的选择了它,我想的是,也许有天,我们能再一次的碰面...
我现在最爱的水果是芒果,最爱的卡通是winnie the pooh....
知道为什么吗?因为这两个都和你有着那么一点点的关系...
我们刚熟悉不久后,因你的一句"比芒果还忙",从此你就是我的芒果王子,
也因如此,我爱上了芒果, 你说过你最喜欢的卡通是winnie the pooh ,
因为pooh 和poon 还蛮象的,从此,没喜欢什么特定卡通的我,
只喜欢winnie the pooh ,
身边的好朋友都知道我爱吃芒果,爱所有winnie the pooh 的物品,
但是他们却不知道我是因为什么而爱上,
那全是因为你,潘彩田....

会写这篇,是因为我想个你知道,一直以来我还放不下你,
我不知道你是否会看我这一篇,但是我还是想为我自己的幸福,
勇敢一次,我不想试也没试,就这么的放弃,
虽然我知道结果大概会是什么,
但是我只是想让你知道,
潘彩田,我还是喜欢你,我们还有那个机会吗?

明天是你的生日了,之前的几年,都有买礼物个你,
只是从来没寄出去给你,因为没有那个勇气...








2011年5月14日星期六

genting trip ~

Wednesday,11/05/2011,
me n my hostel gang family went to genting for 1 day trip...
actually is for celebrate my little sis-xiao bei's birthday,
but accidentially she cant go coz of her "good" lecturer....
so we celebrate her birthday on tuesday ....
we call our"daddy" buy a cake for her,
den we celebrate bside my hostel block ....
she was so shock when she saw the cake ~
coz we nvr let her knw we will celebrate for her ....
and , my another sis- xiao bing draw a card for her ,
and we also buy a present for her, tat is angry bird ~


is it cute ??























After tat, we wnet to bed,coz tomolo we need wake up early in the morning ....
coz we want go to gombak station wait for the genting bus ...
we buy the early ticket-8a.m .....
after an hour, we reach ^^
we all so excited when we reach there ......
coz the weather is so nice ~
we all love it .....
after tat , we wait the ticket counter operate ,
coz we wan buy the outdoor theme park ticket ....
the day when we go , all the coaster is under maintanence ....
really kns !!!!!
so outdoor not many can play ~
we jz play the flying chair, cup tea, "海盗船"train , flying dragon ,
boat and we gt play the water ~
After playing the water, all of us is wet .....
luckily, we all gt bring set of clothes, if not ~
hehehe,all sure will sick after going bk ^^

"背影"

inside the cable car ~






is she cute enough ??






After the day, was my died day ~
coz 12/05/11 is the date release my april exam result ...
im so scare about my result ....
i scare i cant gt the normal grade ...
but lastly , i gt my whole cgpa is 2.7 ...
it is better than last time .....
im so glad ,btw tat i also promise myself ....
need to maintain the result right now ...
it jz can better than , cant less than ....
tis is my "目标" 

2011年5月8日星期日

mother's day ~

Today is mother day, i wanna tell my mum, 
i love her so much ~ 
yesterday, me,my youngest bro and sister bought a cake for her ....
when she saw it , she is so surprise ....
coz of me today need go bk to hostel, 
so we celebrate mother day ytd ~ 
we bought a 1.5kg ice-cream fruit cake for her ~ 
inside the cake is chocolate ice-cream ~ 
ice-cream fruit cake ^^ 

tis cake cost RM81- 1.5kg
coz tis cake is quite big , although ard 10 ppl also cant finish it ^^ 
yesterday was the most memorable day for us ~ 

Last week, my sis went to Hong Kong for spend her labour day holiday ~ 
she go for 4 day 3 nite over there .....
She had buy many souvenir for us ~ 
i think tis is wine ~ 

tis is toblerone chocolate ^^

tis 1 is "元朗老婆饼"
she also gt buy a ocean park key vhain for me ^^
it is so cute ^^ 

today is the last day holiday for me ~ 
tomolo will be a new day , new lesson and new challenge for me...
i hope i can handle it as well as ....
coming thursday will release my sem 3 exam result ~ 
dun know my result will how bad is ~ 
hope it wont so "ugly".......
and tis coming fri is my car driving pratical class ...
is my first time to drive ~ 
although it jz 3 hour, and gt other 2 ppl learn together ,
but i very excited ......
after tis pratical , i will get my L lesen ...
and then i will start my 16 hour driving lesson ~
hope all the thing will go for smooth ~ 

2011年5月5日星期四

new life ,new challenge ~

It was long time i had not been update my blog ....
not because of wat, jz for lazy to update ....
HeHe XD
Well , im gonna to tell u guys about my two month ago's life ....
Let's start my story here ~

After chinese new year , im go back for my new semester...
semester 3 !!!! y i need to mention semester 3 ?
it is because, this is a short sem and most important sem for my 1st year academy .....
if im get something wrong ,mayb mental or physical,
den i need say sayonara to my dearest classmate,
said goodbye to my ptptn loan , said 88 to my 2nd year academy ...
and i will said hello to my may intake 2011 junior ,
coz i need to repeat my failed subject ,
by re-attend the tutorial class, lecture and redo all my assigment...
if im really do tat, u guys will c me to be crazy soon >.<
3rd sem is a short sem n we need to study 3 subject in 7 week !!!
it gonna to kill me , coz one of the subject is about 20 chapter ....
how we can study all in 7 week ??
and how can lecturer can teach so fast without any understanding ??
in tis 7 week , im very mental and stress....
coz each subject had at least one test and one assigment in 7 week period time....
test and assigment are not easy for us ,
bcoz it is new and difficult for us to do resarch,
especially marketing >.<

2nd of march was my 19 birthday ...
tat mean im elder one year alr .....
still have one step, my age start from"2".....
my hostel's family celebrate for me at 12 oclock in the late night....
i was so surprise bcoz , i dun think they will celebrate for me at the late night ....
and they know my like's is winnie the pooh ,
so they go to the bakery shop for order my cake wif the pooh cartoon....
besides this , they also buy a almo bear as my gift....
i like it so much ....really thank you them ...
i love u all ^^ muackz.......
At the day of my birthday, my classmate also celebrate my birthday ~
After class, we go one utama for movie ,
and then we go for shopping awhile and then having our lunch ~
thank you to my lovely classmate for celebrate my birthday ~
tis will be in my memory untill i "两脚一伸"



1st of apr is one of our class's tycoon birthday ~
He is "Eugene"
So we decide celebrate for he at Hard Rock's cafe .....
after our class , we take public transport to there ......
bcoz the time was too early, so we decide to shopping awhile at pavillion ...
coz some of tycoon need to buy thing at pavillion....
we having a nice desert in a japan restaurant while we rest~
after that, we going to hard rock for our dinner ~
tis is my first time go to a restaurant that gt "class" ....
we all have a nice and funny moment at there ~

After the day, is my "bad day "
coz it is time for my final exam ~
although tis sem jz had 3 subject,
but tis 3 is not easy to study ....
except this 3 , i still gt resist 2 paper ....
so , my total subject is 5 ......
and tis coming thursday , my result will release ....
abit stress now , coz tis will affect my life >.<
i dun wan failed !!!!!!!!






tis is my hostel'family gang ^^

tis is my 1st birthday cake from them ....






my gang ~


this is our "战绩"in sakae sushi(4 gal )



Now is 5th of may , it mean it still gt 3 day to go for my new semester....
It will be a new challenge for me , bcoz im in the second year, im a senior ....
can bully my junior jor ~ Hehe XD
I need to put more effort in my study ,
i hope i can get a good result for my other semester ....
Is time to keep my playing heart, to focus on my study ~
gambateh to all my fren ,no matter those study STPM, college or university ~
all must add oil for out future ^^

This coming sunday is mother's day ....
I dun know wat can do for my mother ......
i jz can giv her a surprise , and say the three word tat i never say to her....
that is " Mami , I love You "


ps: today is my dear kiki's birthday , i wan to wish her , happy always , may ur dream come true, become a professional make up-staylist and can find ur dream man early ya ^^
at last , " Happy Birthday To You "